Saturday, January 19, 2008

Happy Birthday Mom

At 8am Beijing time I called mom to be the first one to wish her a Happy Birthday. She’s still visiting my grandparents in China and plans to stay there until after Chinese New Year in the middle of February. I was a bit rushed since I only had 3 minutes left on my calling card and it was getting too late here to venture out to look for a locutorio. As always, mom was very happy to hear from me. She told me that my grandparents are doing well and her health has improved a little since we last spoke. Mother also told me that this winter has been one of the coldest ones she could remember in Hunan. Sometimes I worry about her almost like the way she worries about me. I wonder if she is happy. I wonder if she is healthy. I am my mother’s daughter. I am just like her, only she’s infinitely better and stronger. From time to time I feel like I live my life too selfishly and wish that I could do more to contribute to her happiness. After all she has sacrificed so much for me. The only justification to live the way I do is the fact that I know ultimately she wants me to be happy; therefore, by fulfilling my life with joy I am also bringing happiness to hers. Although I didn’t go to Med school like she wanted me to and have a steady job with a steady boyfriend she knows that I am a responsible and sensible person. She used to worry about me but more and more she has learned to trust my judgments. Mom, I love you and I miss you.

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