Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Gullible

I’ve always been a gullible person especially when it comes to personal relationships. I actually turn my head when people say “look over there!” just to distract me. I’ve always believed in the best of people. Most of the times those chances were worth taking but there are also times when I have been hurt in the process. The law of finance goes something like high risk = high reward. When it comes to relationships I’ve never played it safe. With me it has always been all or nothing. But my greatest downfall is to have a soft heart and a gullible mind. When relationships got tough I never looked out for myself. Instead I cared for others and tried to help people to overcome their demons. I have the tendency to give people chance after chances only to allow myself to sink deeper into dejection and ultimately loose faith in men in general. Like those battered wives, I believed people when they said I love you. Now I’m ready to put those days behind me and ask the selfish question: “What’s in it for me?” If I don’t care for myself no one else will. Love is a verb not a noun. I’ve always offered the best I’ve got now I want to see what someone else can bring to the table. From now on I’ll be strong enough to not fall for simple words but to look harder for concrete actions from whoever I’ll be with a year from now. And when that's not the case I will have the courage to walk away.

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