Monday, January 10, 2011

Neutrality

When Og Mandino wrote, “waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside,” he must had been writing from northwestern MN. Life here is quite bland. I'm not sure if I'm happy but I know I am not unhappy and that's probably a good thing. I also know that I'm more balanced here. There's not much to expect so there's not much to be upset about. Being quite the emotional person I am, the variance on my ups and downs have greatly reduced. The term noise in the economical sense applies to things other than accurate information. In daily life noise can be referred to distractions from one's true self. Pretty quiet here.

Many people are familiar with the classic: How to Win Friends and Influence People. I read the first five pages a while back and am still trying to master the first rule: when you have nothing better to say, just say thank you. Contributing too much is one thing I know I have a problem with. Today I had a good learning opportunity.

Working in the same office as two other females we're constantly stepping on others toes. When a load of uninvited advises and criticisms was unleashed on me today my blood instantly boiled over. It was clear to me that the person had no interest in listening to what I had to say yet I tried to explain my position anyways. When, against all my instinct I said, thank you. Those of you who know me understand how difficult that must have been for me. I'm glad I said thank you but next time it will be the only thing I say.

Today I shed a tear reading the newspaper. If I believed in prayers I would extend them to the families in Arizona. I was never a fan of 24-hour news coverage. Today as I watched CNN I couldn't help but to feel completely frustrated by the absurdity said by tea party organizer who's last name starts with an L and ends with oesch. And what's with the red slutty lipstick??? It's just outrageous.
I used to cry watching movies. I still do but now I'm much more touched by real tragedies and stories of perseverance.

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