Saturday, April 7, 2012

One Down One to Go

Years ago, I remember being very nervous at the final rehearsal leading up to my senior recital. My professor listened to me run through my program and then said in a very calm voice, "when you play just remember: we are all here because we love you." It wasn't enough to completely subdue my nerves at the time but it's something I've always keep close to my heart.

Very feel people really gets me. Whose who do, I know, loves and cares about me deeply. There are days when I feel lonely or down. There are friends I don't talk to very often, family that I don't visit. Never are they far from my thoughts and never are there days when I don't feel that I'm loved.

I'm here because of those who loved me and for that I'm eternally grateful. And because you loved me so deeply I want to do my best to make you proud. It was a hard lesson to learn but accomplish something takes more than just a gut instinct and a initial jump start from a fortunate disposition never carries one far enough to the finish line. Now I that know, I will do all I can so that your love and belief in me was not in vein.

These were my thoughts as I drown down to St. Louis last Sunday for one of the hardest exams I've ever taken. I don't know if I passed but I did do everything I can to prepare for it. One down, one more to go. I feel like I'm in a relay except I'm the only one running. I'm tired but now is not the time to rest. The best is yet to come.