"You've been there done that. You will always have that no matter what happens." I looked into her eyes and said it like a true believer because that's who I am, a believer.
We are always afraid of loosing things. When Rob and me finally separated I cried over the same thing for weeks. How could we move on when we've shared so much together? Where does that all go? Who will I have to remember that with? Our love is still there after all this time. Nothing was lost and nothing ever will. What we've shared will always be there. By telling her that I reminded myself. I needed to hear myself saying that out loud. There was a reason why we met at Rusalka.
"I'm alone a lot but I don't feel lonely. I know what it is I want to feel and I'm not going to settle for anything less. I don't care if I get married or if it will last. I want to feel that again. If you're not happy with the relationship you're in then it's standing in the way of you finding your next great love. You can't live like that. There's nothing is worth loosing that opportunity over. I don't know if I'll find him but I have a chance and that makes me happy."
"How did you know?"
"Back then? I didn't. I just knew it wasn't right for me and I couldn't live like that. That was enough then but now I know better."
"You're an inspiration! You feel like that because you actually like who you are. I want to be where you are."
"You will be. It's just hard to see that now."
We talked and talked and laughed and laughed so hard I wanted to cry. She on the verge of getting out of a life-long relationship/marriage, me on the verge of launching my next great adventure. It was our first time hanging out after Rusalka but it felt as if we've been friends for a long time. I like her. She reminds me a little of myself. I know how she feels because we've been through so much of the same. I wanted to be strong for her because no one should settle for anything but great love. I'm not an optimist. I'm a believer.
I cried for three good days. On the fourth day I sat and I felt peace. The next day I smiled and I knew I was going to be ok. The thing is, I always knew. That's the thing about being a believer, it get you through even the darkest days. I keep going because I know it will get better because it always does.
And it just so happens that we had dinner at Stella, a restaurant on the 6th floor of Macy's. Believe is their logo.
I took the D to Columbus Circle and walked home on CPW. The cold was refreshing. The Christmas lights are still up on 67th street. The reflections looked beautiful on the windows. I'm looking for my next great love and in the meantime, I live in the greatest city in the world! What can be better than this? I'm happy.
We are always afraid of loosing things. When Rob and me finally separated I cried over the same thing for weeks. How could we move on when we've shared so much together? Where does that all go? Who will I have to remember that with? Our love is still there after all this time. Nothing was lost and nothing ever will. What we've shared will always be there. By telling her that I reminded myself. I needed to hear myself saying that out loud. There was a reason why we met at Rusalka.
"I'm alone a lot but I don't feel lonely. I know what it is I want to feel and I'm not going to settle for anything less. I don't care if I get married or if it will last. I want to feel that again. If you're not happy with the relationship you're in then it's standing in the way of you finding your next great love. You can't live like that. There's nothing is worth loosing that opportunity over. I don't know if I'll find him but I have a chance and that makes me happy."
"How did you know?"
"Back then? I didn't. I just knew it wasn't right for me and I couldn't live like that. That was enough then but now I know better."
"You're an inspiration! You feel like that because you actually like who you are. I want to be where you are."
"You will be. It's just hard to see that now."
We talked and talked and laughed and laughed so hard I wanted to cry. She on the verge of getting out of a life-long relationship/marriage, me on the verge of launching my next great adventure. It was our first time hanging out after Rusalka but it felt as if we've been friends for a long time. I like her. She reminds me a little of myself. I know how she feels because we've been through so much of the same. I wanted to be strong for her because no one should settle for anything but great love. I'm not an optimist. I'm a believer.
I cried for three good days. On the fourth day I sat and I felt peace. The next day I smiled and I knew I was going to be ok. The thing is, I always knew. That's the thing about being a believer, it get you through even the darkest days. I keep going because I know it will get better because it always does.
And it just so happens that we had dinner at Stella, a restaurant on the 6th floor of Macy's. Believe is their logo.
I took the D to Columbus Circle and walked home on CPW. The cold was refreshing. The Christmas lights are still up on 67th street. The reflections looked beautiful on the windows. I'm looking for my next great love and in the meantime, I live in the greatest city in the world! What can be better than this? I'm happy.