So this is what it feels like to fall back to sea level. Who knew 40% more oxygen could be so stifling. The city has a way of occupying all your senses, strip you free of your identity and the dream you thought you dreamed. Still, what was seen can't be unseen. What was felt, I knew, was real.
Week three of the eight-week internship. I'm preoccupied by busy work. The thing is, time flies whether or not I'm having fun. It passes the same for everyone, without exceptions. Time passes and opportunities are lost. I see it. I don't like it. And there's nothing I can do about.
I get the unsettled feeling that there's something more I should be doing, something that would guide me to my true calling, some kind of life altering step, somewhere I should go, someone I should meet. I don't know what I should do or if I should be doing anything at all. I have no answers and for the majority of the time I don't even know what the questions are. I feel like I'm not doing enough but what is enough? I don't know. I want to watch the stars with someone who understands, in silence.
When he asked me, what are you thinking? I said, I don't think. And it was true.
Week three of the eight-week internship. I'm preoccupied by busy work. The thing is, time flies whether or not I'm having fun. It passes the same for everyone, without exceptions. Time passes and opportunities are lost. I see it. I don't like it. And there's nothing I can do about.
I get the unsettled feeling that there's something more I should be doing, something that would guide me to my true calling, some kind of life altering step, somewhere I should go, someone I should meet. I don't know what I should do or if I should be doing anything at all. I have no answers and for the majority of the time I don't even know what the questions are. I feel like I'm not doing enough but what is enough? I don't know. I want to watch the stars with someone who understands, in silence.
When he asked me, what are you thinking? I said, I don't think. And it was true.